Oh Prince Charming, where are you?!

Okay. So here's the deal:

Single: check

Young: check

Cute: check (not vain, I've just been told. A lot.)

Obviously I'm on the market.. No No No. That just sounds derogatory and desperate, let me try that again.

I am an available young, attractive woman. Not to mention intelligent and open to compromise. I am understanding and I am not the type of person who always thinks I'm right. I will admit when I am wrong. Not to be a Debbie downer, but my experience with men has knocked my self-esteem down to the red zone and made me feel inadequate and all around frustrated. I am so used to saying "It's my fault" to avoid arguments, I take the blame for things that aren't even my fault! It's time to stand up for myself dammit! But again, I find myself single. And aching over someone who wasn't willing to put up with the flaws, which is a flaw in itself...

I do not feel as if I require a man in my life to complete it. In fact, I very much prefer my single status after the messes I've been in. I am having a hard time understanding why all the fish in the sea thus far are guppies! It must be me! I have high standards and I am picky about who I spend my time around. But wow. I have really picked some duds as far as relationships go. This is not to say that I am not at fault. Because I am in fact at fault for my last failed relationship.

I'm thinking I should swear off relationships. My heart can't take much more. When, and if, I finally do find that person, he doesn't deserve a broken, tattered heart. After all, whoever he is, he will be taking on a single mom, and so far nobody has met the challenge. :] I am going to take a break from hoping, and I am going to start focusing more on mine and my daughter's relationship. She's getting older now and she needs me to be there for her. I am always there for her, but I need to direct my focus on her instead of just being there.

On another note, New Moon came out this weekend. I read the whole saga in a month and I would have liked to have seen the movie today with the rest of the world. But it's all good, I'm pretty sure I didn't need to have 30 and 40 year old women drooling on me over the characters. I'll never understand lusting after a TV character. I am truly a believer in beauty is only skin deep. I can't be bothered to waste my time fantasizing over a fictional character. I mean yeah, we all have our celebrity crushes, mine is Patrick Dempsey, but the who-haw that's going around about Jacob and Edward is sickening. To the point where I think people might start fighting over them.. It's barbaric.