So, I have not been very good at writing recently. Life has gotten the best of my time and I haven't had a second to swim in my thoughts. So much has happened and right now doesn't even feel real.

Things started getting messy when there was talk of my dad getting out of the AF earlier than expected. Now he knows for sure that he will be separating in May. That leaves me to fly the nest. To support myself and my daughter. The twinge I get just thinking about it. Will I be able to do this? And in another country? With only the few friends I have as a support system? I keep telling myself I can before I get too bogged down in the overwhelming sense of "can't." I will be moving in with a friend for a few months while her husband is deployed. After that there's no telling what may happen.

My heart has been stolen. That's right. New years eve I went to London with a guy I know from passing at work. He and I started talking (through facebook..) and he asked me to go to London with him on New Years, and I said yes. It was the most perfect date I have ever had or could ever plan. He is a single dad and an amazing one at that. He is the guy of my dreams, and for some crazy reason he likes me too! I'm just waiting for it to all to fall apart, because that's how things work for me. I am trying not to be too dependent emotionally on him.. I know I love him, and I know I am in love with him, but I am still very gaurded. I can not take falling for him and in a few months breaking up because the "spark is gone" or "things just aren't working." I hate to have that negativity in the relationship, but I haven't really talked about it with him. Things are good so I'm not going to mess them up by worrying or overanalyzing. Things are so very good. In fact, they have never been so good.

In other news, my girl turns 3 on Tuesday! Her party is tomorrow and I have invited a few of her friends to come bowling tomorrow. How crazy is it that my tummy was the size of a basketball this time 3 years ago!? The things that have happened in the last 3 years.. NUTS!

I don't really have much to complain about. Even though my life is about to change drastically. Maybe I just don't care. Maybe it hasn't hit me yet. I think I'm a little excited. It's hard to tell, I'm so focused on school and getting good grades that the rest of everything doesn't really phase me too much. Oh snap!

Good night and happy thoughts.