I won!

Today at work, I won a gift basket!! I'm just thrilled that I actually won. I never win.

I also found out that my dad put in to retire in September. Since he is opting to retire early, Lt. Col. JerkHead will probably drop all charges and leave my dad to finish out his sentence in peace.

September is going to come fast, and I have this horrible feeling that I'm not ready to go. I'm not ready to pay the bills and accumulate the debt, because, lets be honest- childcare is not a profession that pays enough to survive while in an economic crisis. For one, both Caelyn and I will not have medical insurance and if we stay here we will. England has a nationalized health care plan and I think it's great!! If the US had this, I wouldn't have been out 6 grand in medical bills because my kid got viral pneumonia and had a seizure. At 19 months she stopped breathing and turned blue. Of course I called 911, and took a 900$ trip to an ER where we sat for 7 hours (with a sick baby that just wanted to go home) took 4 x-rays (at 40$ each) and never saw a doctor, but I was charged 474$ just to get his message from a nurse. SO, GO OBAMA! I'm all for it. But it will take a long time for the states to adjust.

On another note, I don't know where I'm going to live. There are some kinda, sorta, maybe ideas that I've been tossing around. I could move to California, my "home" and live with my mom and her son and sister in her 3 bedroom condo. Or, I could move up to Indiana and stare at corn fields while my dad cleans my great-grampas house and tries to sell it. Then there's going back to Florida where Caelyn's dad is and where my dad will retire. But, I think I would like some distance between her dad and I. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't living in the same house. Or, I could stay here. I am leaning more towards staying here. Especially if I don't have my degree by the time I go. I have 7 classes left and I should be able to have it done by September, but you never know.

Decisions, decisions. I wish I wasn't so indecisive. Maybe I'll just pick a random place I've never lived and dive in. Colorado sounds nice... but if I'm going to go somewhere I've never been.. Why not Italy, or Spain? I've got a lot of thinking to do.