Emotional Trainwreck.

what.the.hell.should.I.do?

I can't stop thinking, even for a second about the choice I am faced with. Do I follow my head, again? Or, do I go with the romantic approach and go with what my heart so desperately wants? I am aching for some way to know what I should do.

I can't shake this feeling. I am on the verge of tears at any given moment, and I can say that I do not cry often.

It was never supposed to be this hard. I was not taught or prepared to deal with these kinds of scenarios. Instead I learned a bunch of pointless shit that does not help me one bit in making the biggest, hardest decisions of my life..

What the fuck is going on? I can't THINK. I can't breathe. I can't move in myself. I am so overwhelmed with life, and I can't even think clearly to sort it out.

I just don't know. I cannot find it in me to be positive when I can't even be sure of what kind of living, financial and relationship situation I will be in only 5 months. Everything is going to change.